I say this all the time, but I am sorry that my friends are not as cool as yours.
Everyone out there is just going to have to realize that the people in my life kick some extraordinary trash. My friends are amazing, and they would do anything for me. I really, truly appreciate it. Here is a short list of things they have to put up with on a daily basis:
*I like to cuddle, a lot. I probably force people into doing it, and by probably, I mean I do. All of my housemates have just succumbed to this, in fact all of my friends have. I have so many friends who say things like, I am not a touchy person. And then I say something like, but I am the acceptation right? I usually am. If I am not, I will cuddle you until you like it. The other morning I woke up, went downstairs, and my dearest dear Mindy was lying on the couch, I laid on top of her. We didn’t really talk, I just laid there. Then when I woke up all the way, I went to the kitchen to eat my breakfast; she went on with her life. I will randomly jump you in random places. Like at the grocery store, usually in the frozen food section. I don’t know why. Mostly, I think I just get so overcome by love and adoration for the people in my life that I cannot control it any longer, and I have to hug them. Sorry I am a creep.
* I like being a creepy person. The more obsessive-stalker ish it sounds, the better.
*I have no filter between my mouth and brain.
*If given the opportunity, I will say, “That’s what she said.” One Christmas, I said it so much that my Grandma started saying it. Last year, when my dad’s birth mother was in town, my mom and I had to make up a code word for the phrase, you know, so we could be pervy and not have the birth mom pass judgments.
*Sometimes, I will go for weeks without talking to you. But that doesn’t mean you aren’t in my thoughts, you probably are, I am just terrible at keeping in touch that way.
* I love talking about “taboo” things. I studied sexuality in college, it was basically my minor. I will probably talk about it all the time if I could get away with it.
*When I get upset, really really upset, I bake everything in my house. Once, I went downstairs to Trent’s kitchen, pulled all of the flour, sugar, and eggs I could find, and proceeded to bake a cake, two different types of cookies, bread, and maybe brownies. I think there were rice crispy treats up in that too.
* I have to wash my hands twice, so you will run out of soap all the time.
*I will start cleaning your stuff randomly.
*I will say inappropriate things at the most inappropriate times.
*It takes me about three months to mail anything. Currently, I have KaeLee’s break up CDs sitting on my desk, right beside Denice’s birthday present, and Dad’s Father Day gift. The post office is just so hard.
*I am SUPER passive-aggressive. Sorry, but not really, but kind of.
*I might be more indecisive than passive-aggressive, I am not positive though.
*I think I am real funny.
*I think I am more clever than funny.
*If given the choice, I will start a fight with you in the store, a pretend fight where no one’s feelings will get hurt. Preferably in the family planning section, Trent is the best at this. My mom is not too shabby either, although, the family planning section arguments aren’t nearly as funny with her.
*I will probably try to be your mom. :S
*I will touch you. A lot.
*I will judge you on your music and book taste… And I will not be quiet about my own opinions. (Special apology for Chelsey on that one… I love you and I love that you like farmer music… even if it “isn’t my thing”)
*I am nerdy, I will pass off my nerdy things to you. (Again, Chelsey comes to mind.)
*I whine about how I don’t truly write anymore, but I never do anything about it.
*When I don’t eat protein in a while one of two things will happen. A) I will become a super horrible person, and I will probably try to eat your soul. B) I become super emotional, whiney, and I will probably cry. (HINT: Just feed me a chicken nugget or a string cheese and tell me to get over myself)
* I will replay our conversations in my head, especially when if we got into an argument or had to have a serious discussion. I will try not to do this, but I will lay awake for nights on end obsessing over it. I won't tell you about it though.
*I will make gag sounds if you touch your eyes excessively. It is absolutely disgusting. Don’t do that.
*It will annoy me, obsessively, if you do not keep up with your own obsessive compulsive behaviors. Be consistent people.
*I will love you, and I will probably always love you. But I really, really, really, really, really, mean it.
*Generally, I try to be super honest in my life. If you give me a specific question,
I will give you a specific answer. Sometimes I am not very forthcoming with information, so you may have to ask.
*I will talk about people like you know them personally. Not in a gossipy way, but in the way that something funny happens, and I will tell you about it, because I think you care about their lives.
*I will make us sound like a couple, even though we aren't actually a couple. Like, if you ask me where we should go, I will say, somewhere romantic.
*Really cheesy romantic things make me uncomfortable, even though I always want things to be this weird romantic that only exists in my head. Like, mix tape romantic. Never roses and staring into each other's eyes romantic. Gag.
Anyhow, thank you friends and family for being my friend. I love you.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
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Sunday, June 5, 2011
Cedar City
I have a confession for all of you.
I live in Cedar City, Festival City USA.
And I like it here, I have no rhyme or reason to this, I just do. It feels like home to me. It is quaint and quirky and weird. And I love it.
Cedar and I have been through a lot together. I have lived in many places here and for many years. I have had some of the greatest times of my life here. I have also had some of the darkest times of my life here. I have had the opportunity to get to know so many amazing people here, people whom my life would be incomplete without. I have also lost people here.
But here is what is so hard to swallow: It is far from so many people whom I dearly, dearly love. I want everyone to understand that this post in no way is to sound ungrateful for the people who also live here, because I don't know what I would do without them either. I mean that.
It is 252 miles from Cedar City to Salt Lake.
It is 274 miles from Cedar City to Layton.
It is 403 miles from Cedar City to Spring Creek.
It is roughly 550 miles from Cedar City to KaeLee.
It is 1,025 miles from Cedar City to Battle Ground.
It is 1,030 miles from Cedar City to Canby.
It is 1,551 miles from Cedar City to Madison.
I could thrown in a few other distances there too.
But the point here is, in this week, I would have given anything to be in any one of these places. It is so hard to want to be in all of these places at once. It is hard to miss all of these people at once, sorry you salt lake people got lumped. I would seriously give anything to hug the people in each location right now.
I want so badly to be there when things are sad, when things hurt. And right now, there are a lot of things that hurt. I cannot be. And that hurts. A lot.
I have had an immensely difficult time with the following question, "When are you just going to give up and move up here?!"
I understand this is said with love. I understand this is said because someone misses me.
That having been said, it doesn't make it any easier.
I just want to scream sometimes, because you only have one person to miss. I have a bucket load. And if I were to move, I would have another bucket load here and there that I would miss.
It is hard... for everyone... but realize it is hard on me too. Don't think that I am not praying for the chance to move away, I am. But I get the same thing: stay in Cedar. So, I stay in Cedar. Staying in Cedar is one of the hardest things I have ever done, because sometimes my heart misses everyone all at once, and I don't know what to do about that.
I guess what I am trying to say is, sometimes distance hurts.
Though, I can see many reasons why I have been told to stay here. I am glad I have listened. I am a stronger, better person for staying here. There are still people here who I need, and some who need me too. It isn't fair anyway you look at it. But it is happening. That does not mean I love you less. It does not mean that I don't wish with every ounce of my body to be somewhere else.
I have a so many people whom I consider to be family. I have pockets of people all over, and I love them, with all of my being. I wish I could be in every place at once.
Anyone have a teleport?
I live in Cedar City, Festival City USA.
And I like it here, I have no rhyme or reason to this, I just do. It feels like home to me. It is quaint and quirky and weird. And I love it.
Cedar and I have been through a lot together. I have lived in many places here and for many years. I have had some of the greatest times of my life here. I have also had some of the darkest times of my life here. I have had the opportunity to get to know so many amazing people here, people whom my life would be incomplete without. I have also lost people here.
But here is what is so hard to swallow: It is far from so many people whom I dearly, dearly love. I want everyone to understand that this post in no way is to sound ungrateful for the people who also live here, because I don't know what I would do without them either. I mean that.
It is 252 miles from Cedar City to Salt Lake.
It is 274 miles from Cedar City to Layton.
It is 403 miles from Cedar City to Spring Creek.
It is roughly 550 miles from Cedar City to KaeLee.
It is 1,025 miles from Cedar City to Battle Ground.
It is 1,030 miles from Cedar City to Canby.
It is 1,551 miles from Cedar City to Madison.
I could thrown in a few other distances there too.
But the point here is, in this week, I would have given anything to be in any one of these places. It is so hard to want to be in all of these places at once. It is hard to miss all of these people at once, sorry you salt lake people got lumped. I would seriously give anything to hug the people in each location right now.
I want so badly to be there when things are sad, when things hurt. And right now, there are a lot of things that hurt. I cannot be. And that hurts. A lot.
I have had an immensely difficult time with the following question, "When are you just going to give up and move up here?!"
I understand this is said with love. I understand this is said because someone misses me.
That having been said, it doesn't make it any easier.
I just want to scream sometimes, because you only have one person to miss. I have a bucket load. And if I were to move, I would have another bucket load here and there that I would miss.
It is hard... for everyone... but realize it is hard on me too. Don't think that I am not praying for the chance to move away, I am. But I get the same thing: stay in Cedar. So, I stay in Cedar. Staying in Cedar is one of the hardest things I have ever done, because sometimes my heart misses everyone all at once, and I don't know what to do about that.
I guess what I am trying to say is, sometimes distance hurts.
Though, I can see many reasons why I have been told to stay here. I am glad I have listened. I am a stronger, better person for staying here. There are still people here who I need, and some who need me too. It isn't fair anyway you look at it. But it is happening. That does not mean I love you less. It does not mean that I don't wish with every ounce of my body to be somewhere else.
I have a so many people whom I consider to be family. I have pockets of people all over, and I love them, with all of my being. I wish I could be in every place at once.
Anyone have a teleport?
Laterly
I have a ton of things to update you all on. I wish I had pictures for these things, but alas.
Three weekends ago I went camping with Jo and Trevor, and Jo's family in Zions. I had a blast. I was especially grateful to get to know Jo's sister Andrea a bit better. I love trevor and jo too, they are like the best.
I am now a triathlete. No, you did not just read that wrong. I am, in fact, a triathlete. Last weekend, May 28, I participated in a triathlon put on by my dear, dear housemate Chelsey's family, the Greenwood Triathlon. I am glad I did it, mostly I am glad I felt budom-ed into doing it. People keep asking me what my time was, when I tell them, they say something to the effect of, "Don't feel bad..." Guess what people, I do not. I do NOT. I did a freaking triathlon, probably in worse shape then I have been in in my life. And I finished it. You and your, don't worry about your time comments can stick it. Please and thank you.
Three weekends ago I went camping with Jo and Trevor, and Jo's family in Zions. I had a blast. I was especially grateful to get to know Jo's sister Andrea a bit better. I love trevor and jo too, they are like the best.
I am now a triathlete. No, you did not just read that wrong. I am, in fact, a triathlete. Last weekend, May 28, I participated in a triathlon put on by my dear, dear housemate Chelsey's family, the Greenwood Triathlon. I am glad I did it, mostly I am glad I felt budom-ed into doing it. People keep asking me what my time was, when I tell them, they say something to the effect of, "Don't feel bad..." Guess what people, I do not. I do NOT. I did a freaking triathlon, probably in worse shape then I have been in in my life. And I finished it. You and your, don't worry about your time comments can stick it. Please and thank you.
I spent the rest of the weekend with a bunch of other people whom I love dearly. Mindy, Trent, Rachel, Brandon, and Adam. Seriously, some of the best people in the world. Saturday night, we had a bbq at Craig's and then a stellar dance party at the Gaybors, who are also fantastic. Sunday Trent and I spent a lot of time talking, which was nice. Then we went to his family party, where we were joined by Adam, then it was off to a movie with Rach, Brandon, and Denice. Overall, good times. Monday, we went to lunch, then Trent and I went to the Janelle Monae concert, it was super wonderful. All of it.
I love the people I have in my life. Just so you know.
This weekend I decided to make no plans. I feel like I have consistently been busy for the past month, and while I would not have given up anything I have been doing, I am super grateful for the chance to just relax and not have to be somewhere. I have slept in, caught up on chores, bummed around, and have loved every moment of it.
This was a very boring blog.
Sorry about your expectations shattering.
Hypocrite
Dear Blog World, (Really... anyone who actually reads this)
I have a confession. I am a terrible blogger. Mostly, I like to blog-stalk the crap out of you all, and not return the favor by posting interesting things. I am sorry about that fact. I would promise to do better, however, I do not see that happening any time soon. I once had this idea that I would take one day a week and write a ton of them, then post them randomly... apparently, I am motivated. Obviously.
I am a hypocrite.
Xoxoxo,
Brittni
I have a confession. I am a terrible blogger. Mostly, I like to blog-stalk the crap out of you all, and not return the favor by posting interesting things. I am sorry about that fact. I would promise to do better, however, I do not see that happening any time soon. I once had this idea that I would take one day a week and write a ton of them, then post them randomly... apparently, I am motivated. Obviously.
I am a hypocrite.
Xoxoxo,
Brittni
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