Sometimes

Sometimes... when I am at work mostly, I want to stand on my chair and sing at the tops of my lungs. Mostly because I am in the singing mood.

It is happening right now.

Small and Simple Things

Here are some things that I have been thinking about:

Bruises on your arms, especially where arm hair is involved, can look strange in the right light. 

The next time I date a boy, I am going to take a serious look at his music collection. I might judge the rest of the dates on this fact. Seriously. I am highly considering it.

Sometimes, when my friends who are older than me say things like, 'When I was 25, I tried Internet dating, it got me into a really bad relationship, but that is what you are supposed to do at your age.' or 'When I was your age, I was terrified I would spend my life alone.' I am not sure what to say in response... but none of the things I think of seem very helpful to the situation.

But at the same time, I like to talk about things and then tell people younger than me, 'You probably don't remember that, it was before your time... sorry you missed the 80s.' Ask my housemates.  

Tonight I went to this really interesting Collaboration Performance. It makes me want to do something like that... but I would actually have to write something again. And... I would have to figure out how to do things like that. But the concept of it all was freaking awesome. The first piece featured poetry, or maybe flash fiction, I am still unsure which it was, percussion, and print making. It was very neat. The second piece featured a short story, more percussion and very organic sounding music, and a visual graphic presentation. It was really neat. Tyler, of Braun Books, said that the students will have to do something similar, a collaboration between all three areas, writing, music, and graphic design, as well as find a space to do it. I think it sounds awesome, and I am a little jealous I don't get to do something similar. Mostly, it made me glad I live in a place that encourages things like that.

And finally... 

Most importantly...

Why is that I can semi-manage my bank account, a team full of people, my general life, but I can never EVER ever manage the cracker to cheese ratio in my Handi-Snack Breadstick N' Cheez?

Forgiveness

Today I am thankful for the power of forgiveness. The fact that we are able to be completely forgiven for all of our sins is an amazing thing, but more amazing is the power we have to forgive others.

I was sitting in the temple yesterday and I realized that I have forgiven a certain individual for everything he put me through. It does not mean that I have forgotten everything, I don't think I should. I need to remember a lot of the things that happened, so I can never make those mistakes again, so I can never put myself in that particular situation again. I just feel that I was given an amazing gift, and once I realized I had been able to forgive him, a huge weight was taken off my shoulders.

I am so grateful.

If you would have told me two months ago I would realize all these things, I probably wouldn't have believed you. But I am glad to be here now, in this place. 

Reading

I need to read... something that is good. and that can keep me occupied and entertained.

I am thinking of reading All the Pretty Horses. I will let you know how it goes.

I wish I had something to write about. And I mean write about on this blog and write about for real. Somehow in the past two and a half years I have been graduated, I have lost the ability to look at something and write about it. Which is really sad. I think I need to issue some writing exercises for myself or something.

Blah.

When did I become this boring?