Blach.

I want to be able to say I don't only write on my blog when I feel upset or unhappy, but that probably wouldn't be the truest statement of all time, we all know it. I feel like that in the past three weeks I have felt better, ish about things. For the most part... But then I have these moments, like tonight, where I just feel like I am back at the beginnings of things, times when I feel like it would be great to just Eternal Sunshine him.And pretty much the last like seven months or so, because the truth is, he is not the only reason everything feels crushing or like I'm falling apart. Work has been gross, I feel like I've made some wrong choices and they have created this place I am in there, and I feel stuck. I can count nine people who I know are actively searching for new jobs, so that makes half of the office with one foot out the door. No one wants to be there, its difficult. And there is my aunt and things there are crazy. And I feel like it would be really cool to have people in my corner, but that is hard too.

I want to go back to this morning, when I was busy and hopeful. When things felt like it would be so nice to just start over. I don't know. Now I am tired and things are weird. Everything will look better in the morning, right?