Today was a strange mixed up day, super emotional if you will.
I was so happy all day. I got up, listened to some good music, got dressed, and made a lunch. Then I jumped on a bike and started our ride to work, listening to Rilo Kiley. A grand way to spend the morning. I got to work and I did fixes all day, I am pretty sure my brain melted. I chatted and spent the day with lovely people. We went and watch Ben perform at open mic night, he did wonderfully by the way. Buy his cd on itunes.
Then I got a call from my mom. And I knew what it meant, and my heart broke for some dear friends. I haven't been the best at keeping in contact with the Whitaker family lately. Or for a long time. I kind of dropped off of the face of the Earth when it comes to the people in my old ward, I have my reasons... And none of them are really good, mostly time and distance, with a dash of fear and probably a sprinkle of pride. I guess it is easier to say, that at some point in my life I needed to cut ties. I needed to cut them fast and hard and rather than explain myself, I just ran. I feel bad about that. But this isn't about my guilt, and I probably shouldn't have even brought it up. ANYWAY. My mom told me that Risa had passed away. It is such a bittersweet thing. I cannot even imagine what their family is going through right now. I thought about what it would be like to lose my sister, and I cannot even imagine. Horrible. But then I remembered our Heavenly Father, and there is comfort there. Mostly, I think I wish I could give them a big hug. I don't know why, I just feel like hugs make things easier.
Mostly, I just ask that you say a little prayer for the Whitakers, even if you don't know them. Trust me, they are amazing people.
Thanks.
I was so happy all day. I got up, listened to some good music, got dressed, and made a lunch. Then I jumped on a bike and started our ride to work, listening to Rilo Kiley. A grand way to spend the morning. I got to work and I did fixes all day, I am pretty sure my brain melted. I chatted and spent the day with lovely people. We went and watch Ben perform at open mic night, he did wonderfully by the way. Buy his cd on itunes.
Then I got a call from my mom. And I knew what it meant, and my heart broke for some dear friends. I haven't been the best at keeping in contact with the Whitaker family lately. Or for a long time. I kind of dropped off of the face of the Earth when it comes to the people in my old ward, I have my reasons... And none of them are really good, mostly time and distance, with a dash of fear and probably a sprinkle of pride. I guess it is easier to say, that at some point in my life I needed to cut ties. I needed to cut them fast and hard and rather than explain myself, I just ran. I feel bad about that. But this isn't about my guilt, and I probably shouldn't have even brought it up. ANYWAY. My mom told me that Risa had passed away. It is such a bittersweet thing. I cannot even imagine what their family is going through right now. I thought about what it would be like to lose my sister, and I cannot even imagine. Horrible. But then I remembered our Heavenly Father, and there is comfort there. Mostly, I think I wish I could give them a big hug. I don't know why, I just feel like hugs make things easier.
Mostly, I just ask that you say a little prayer for the Whitakers, even if you don't know them. Trust me, they are amazing people.
Thanks.
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